Because life has a way of happening to all of us, almost directly after I posted about my indecision on a cording layout for my new stays, I came down with some sort of horrible illness that led to me being off work for a little while, and to being delirious for most of that time.
Yeah, it was trippy.
Anyway, I'm just now starting to feel normal again, although still fatigued. Unfortunately, I haven't been sewing much while gulping OJ and vitamins and sleeping a lot. One thing I have done, however, is realize that I'm not really taking care of myself. Home alone for two days, I barely had enough food around to feed my sick self a couple of eggs, much less the actual amount of food that a real adult human needs. So while I was bundled up in a fuzzy blanket on the couch, I put together a meal plan.
I've mentioned before that one of the side effects I've experienced from being on citalopram and trazodone long term is weight gain. (The other side effect was dry mouth, but thankfully that went away.) In speaking with my doctor, I learned that the reason these particular medications cause weight gain is that they keep my body from feeling full even once I've eaten a normal amount of food. So, not knowing this, I would eat more than the normal amount of food because my body would tell me, "You're not full yet! Keep eating, you!" That, combined with my terminal cooking laziness, apathy about feeding myself, and aversion to grocery shopping, is a deadly combination as far as weight control is concerned.
Now, before anyone says it, I know what I said before about body image. And I still stand by that. I'm not unhappy with my body as it is now, at 240 lbs. It's still strong, and it's still relatively healthy. But it's not as strong and healthy as it was not too long ago, and more importantly, my body itself isn't happy with that 40 or 50 extra pounds it's carrying around. I don't want to be a certain dress size, or a certain number on the scale...but I do want to be strong(er), in shape, and active.
With that in mind, along with the information I got from a dietician right before Christmas (on referral from my doc), I sat down with my mom to put together a meal plan that focuses on portion size and a balance of food groups. She was a gestational diabetic when she had both her children, so she's well-versed in the art of food monitoring. My problem, as it has been in the past, is that I'm not feeding myself enough, or often enough. It's very common for me to go all day at work on nothing but an apple or a granola bar, and then pick up something to eat on the way home. That's unealthy in so many ways, and my aim is to break the cycle.
The biggest thing will be planning ahead, I think. Another thing is not getting into a rut. I'm not an enthusiastic cook, but I'm starting to wonder if maybe that's part of why I'm also not an enthusiastic eater. It's a vicious cycle--I don't ever make anything new or interesting, so nothing that I have at home sounds good, so I don't eat. Plus if I don't make anything, I don't take lunch to work, then by the time I get home I'm so starved I don't even want to think about taking the time to cook, so I stop on the way home and grab something full of empty calories...you get the picture.
Incidentally, Pinterest has been really helpful in my search for new things to try, so I don't end up eating plain chicken and raw green beans all the time. I mean, don't get me wrong--I like green beans and chicken, but variety is the spice of life and if I'm going to be doing this long term I need to have some options. Because there are so many different things that people have shared, it's great to scroll through and take a gander at anything that looks good. I pinned a number of things over the last couple of weeks to try, and started last night by making an experimental batch of Crock Pot Turkey White Bean Pumpkin Chili. Verdict? Pretty darn good!
I did find out that my crock pot is evidently smaller than the original cook's. I ended up mixing everything together in the crock pot and then removing four cups anf freezing it so that I had room to stir with the stuff I actually cooked. A number of my "to try" recipes actually come from that site, Skinnytaste, because she gives nutrition facts on all her recipes. When you're looking at grams of carbs and protein, nutrition info is key!
So, that's what's been going on at Casa la Katie recently. This weekend, though, there will be significant stays progress to show! Stay tuned.